Whether it is due to a addictive substance, a reoccuring illness,or a particular behavior that leads to distructive tendencies it is so hard to see a person relapse and have to see them struggle. It would be easy to put blinders on and say "oh, it's not so bad" or "they will be just fine. I'll just leave them alone" But in your heart you know better. So when a family member relapsed after so many years of being well it is so sad. I am sad. I had to go to the Redwood Regional Park and be with my tall friends. It was Jalani's first visit and as I watched his eyes bright with amazement point at the hawks and redwood trees I felt joy and sadness. But the giants helped me remember that though life is bitter sweet there is dignity and grace in difficult times. After all what are trees but testaments of endurance.
So I prayed and laid as much of my sadness there in the park. And as we left I felt lighter and appreciative for my gift of inner stillness from the tall, flexible, swaying redwoods. Thank You.
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